wow

aaaaaaaah
can i do this?
aaaaah
i dunno
it's so scary
i started working for edengrove on monday. it's now wensday.
it's been...solid dust. all week so far.
and my face burns and burns and burns even when i put layers of sunscreen on----the sunscreen application also rubs in all the dust and grime, i come home looking like a miner or something...and it hurts so much.
and i'm tired....so tired...but i'm not even done school yet! it's hard to think about school when i just want to sleep...
i have four paintings to finish and hand in by friday...and four exams to write...and i'm working ALL this week, no chance to study for realism. eek.
and i miss CLS so much, i'm really tempted to go back there. except pam won't be there so it won't be good old cls anymore it'll be more like ew cls.
we drive past places, like on highway 5, that i worked at last year with cls...but it feels so weird b/c i'm in an edengrove shirt and an edengrove truck with edengrove people that i don't know very well and who work a whole lot harder than cls people...or are just more focused on it anyway.
well, my eyes are all cloudy, because of dust and stuff all day----so i better go find myself some sunglasses before i go blind. bye.