future?

yes.
thank you laura! (read laura's blog, follow the link to the right...) she pretty much summed up what i learned a lot of today.
and i've been learning a lot of it this entire week.
although i'm not actually positive it's such a grand thing: i really don't know if this is all just a nice way for me to talk myself into thinking that being lazy is a-ok. :)
that's fine, right?
i mean, i really don't know if i should let myself go like this...but what else would i do. i have no goals towards which i can work really hard, so why should i kill myself over school and get all stressed out. i'm not a huge fan of landscaping every summer for the next five years, but maybe i can find something else. i'm not a fan of being a bum for the next five years...haha...maybe i'll move out in the next year or two, provided i get a job or some sort of relatively regular flow of income...hhmm... want to buy a masterpiece painting or some fun sculpture?
meanwhile, i'm still working on my goals list. it'll be posted within the next couple of days. before i start really thinking about it, i need to write a take home test--two 1000-1500 word essays on wolfflin and panofsky and other crazy art historians' crazy theories. the worst of which is julia kristeva---25 pages of psychoanalysis and semiotics. she even puts freud in there. i tried to present this article in class last week (haha) but no such luck. a week later and it's still greek to me. write a paper? yeah right.
AAAHHH

but in the midst of this take home test, i've got a bit of peace...no worries about that future...just do stuff now, write that paper, and graduate.
YES!