Wednesday, April 12, 2006

not in a blogging mood

sometimes i like having school/summer work/new people transitions, but right now i don't. like...i like how i don't have to be stuck doing this one thing forever...i can count on this semester ending, then i can count on landscaping only for...forever...and then that'll end and i'll go back to school.
but...i'm waay ready to move on, but i'm really not either. i want to stay here and keep learning, nonschool stuff... like if i go through this transition phase i'll leave behind all the half-learned things and not really grow from these lessons. i'll move into the work/sleep routine and lose the social life, bible study, mentoring, etc... and i'll just backslide. i have this landscaping/summer chunk (with random highlights in it, like cityscript, kelly's cottage, camp, making money) and then europe chunk, but nothing really after that to look forward to. not because there's nothing, it's simply that i don't know just what i want to look forward to. i'd like to figure that one out too. flip! i mean, zip zap rap! and i was NOT looking at his crotch. :P
anyways i wake up at 6 tomorrow, outside all day. i'd guess my latenight msn/internet habits will have to stop right about....now!

PS. i painted my toes today...bright blue/green (with one green on each foot) i like...summery, despite the rain...

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

look forward to seeing me n jak again. all the normalness that we bring to your life. haha. i cant believe that you are leaving the continent just when i get back. uh, what a jerk. haha, stop trying to figure out your life. God has it figured out already, just give it to Him and leave it in His hands. You're funny. Stop freaking out. dont worry. life will work out. you will never be without options. life wont stop if you dont know what to do next. and you wont lose the lessons, although it might be a while before you look back and finish figuring them out. but that's ok.

Anonymous said...

stop looking at black men's crotches