and i KNOW i'm gonna end up staying out late at large group and crabby joe's tomorrow night. maybe even drinking alcohol! you know how that'll end up. (writing very late, and writing very stupid)
good thing i don't really care. :D friday morning will come and go whether i'm done or not. no problems.
ok so we had a 'reflect on what God's taught you this year' small group. with art/crafty results. i journalled about it the other day (just to prep a little!) but today it was all different...after my interesting day at sheridan. pretty much dealt yesterday with a lot of 'why are you in school anyways' sort of questions. (add a few beeps in there). i'm in school because...i'm not ready to just be working/starting a career...i've got tons of learning to do, not just booklearning, but Godlearning, grouplearning, fellowshiplearning--stuff i would never learn in church!--and stuff i NEED to learn... i also want a degree. and i can learn--i might as well learn! yeah? yeah.
imagine if i hadn't gone to school now. wouldn't know all the crazy cool people that i now know and love...wouldn't know myself quite the way i do now...wouldn't know God the way i do, and wouldn't be challenged every day to get to know him way the heck more than i do now! (because i don't think i know him very well...)
so my issue right now is self-doubt. self-confidence has been huuuuge for me, and this year has been really big in dealing with it. in recognizing it as an issue, in doing things despite it, in having people who are genuinely cheering me on, in me realizing this again and again and really taking it to heart...
it's still an issue...and will be for a long time. i know that. hhhmm.
i need a massage. and sleep. and this paper to be finished. but mostly i just need to sleep through a really good massage after i finish this paper.
ps i added a new link----toothpastefordinner----these comics have been around for a while but i just discovered them off someone's myspace. brilliant! addictive. hence the direct link. :D emjoy.
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