so...yeah. i don't know where to start.
uummm
ok i'll describe my day: wake up. shower. breakfast from 7.30-8.45. session from 9-12.30. lunch 12.30-1.30. free time 1.30-4. session 4-5.30. dinner 5.30-6.45. music/worship and session 6.45-10. then sleep!
and, i have my own room--this never happens! it's so nice. i like having my own room.
uumm....
except describing the schedule doesn't really cover it...
i have my 20 staedtler markers, my crayolas, and 5 highlighters, and i can't read what i'm doing on my page--there's so much going on.
we've spent... 19 hours (well, no. 16 or 17) and we're only on pg 7. (right after Jesus tells us who his family is: the people around him, doing the will of God)
it's an interesting group---and i'm really enjoying stepping out and talking: i don't often talk much in group settings, but i'm getting out of that and trying out my voice...funny.
except...describing how the bible study is going doesn't cover it either.
i had a really good talk with Mari (haha---always) and we just...covered a lot of stuff, about what the study's pulling out of my own life. how it resonates with things like all these insecurities that i have, the nondirection where my life is going, and the identity that i want to find in direction---i don't need that! woohoo
and then...more things about the old and the new being incompatible (wineskins, patches on clothes)---did you know that it's just common sense to not combine the two, old and new--not because it's just not a good idea, but because it ends up in MESS. analogy: conservative can ref church + hip-happening newsboys or 'emerging' church ideas = MESS. chaos. pain. not a good situation. weird to think about.
YET--this is not to say that old/canref is bad, or that new is bad, just that we need to be ready to make some changes to make room for the new. so that we avoid the mess.
i'm pretty ready for those changes. hopefully they don't involve leaving just yet.
except...that's not NEAR all of it. it's what, thursday today? (haha, i have no idea!) it's steph's bday. 19! i think we'll get into some more intense stuff during the rest of the week.
but, breakfast started at...9. session's at 10 (because we went on a streetwalk with sanctuary last night, downtown. interesting! late. tired. long walk!) ....
ttyl
6 comments:
Neat! Very interesting. When you have time, can you post some pics for us? Tx!
Jo
Thats awesome Stiner.
Sar
stiner u r hilarious. and i luv ya. so wats up with all this bloggin stuff. can u tell i've been without a computer for a looooong time. so another cousins nite is overdue so ya gotta talk to the other cuzs and figure stuff out. so if u ever need to talk about insecurities come see me 'n deziree luv ya
ya pictures! i'll see what i can do. and, insecurities! hehe...
nadine how's your sweater?
christina did you get a computer now!??! woooah makin technological advances now, eh? ;) you should start a blog and write funny stuff about deziree growing up. :) like pictures and stuff...:)
sounds great, cant wait to hear more! praying its a blessing for ya...
craziness. sounds awsome. sounds good for you. haha maybe finally you will realize that everyone is insecure. and that it's a part of life and a part of trusting god. trusting others. knowing, that no matter what, you will always be you, you will always turn out ok, and that you will always be loved and have a place in life, even if it is unexpected and unplanned.crazy girl. miss you this summer. dont kill your self working. share the cookies. and learn to get real.
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