so...i got some emails back from various profs today, after i'd emailed them to see what they thought of me missing a month. one said 'no WAY is that a good idea...' well, he definitely suggested that i drop the course and take something in the summer. hehe.
another prof said...'we'll talk to you when you get back' or something to that effect.
this makes me...nervous. i want to finish my degree, eventually. i want to be at school this year. i want to know more about myself. i want to make someone proud. i want to be happy.
i want all these things, and more, but vaguely. i don't have definite plans for getting there, i'm not adventurous enough to just jump in somewhere. i like my comfort zone...a little too much maybe. i'm even vague about this eurotrip! less than 2 weeks away! flip.
this is how i do everything, including my art----i want this finished product to look really good, but i don't know just how to get there, besides just doing stuff.
rrgg.
volleyball playoffs tonight! heck yeah.
and, 3, yes THREE, more days at edengrove.
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Well, I've always said the same thing about comfort zones, love. If you're comfortable, that means that you're not growing. So you have to make the decision to not be comfortable, to feel icky because like we said at C/S serving and loving Jesus is one messy affair. You gotta be willing to get messy and to get your hands covered with the disgusting stuff all the way up to your shoulders. Stop worrying about your path because like it says in the Bible, rejoice, for the steps of a righteous man are ordered by God. The path that He has pre-ordained for you to walk, why, His footsteps are clearly imprinted on it. You don't have to know your path before you step on it, He already knows it. He knew you before you even knew yourself, before you were even conceived in your mother's womb. Just let him do it Justine and stop worrying about who you have to make proud. You make me proud by seeking and wanting and yearning and being who God is trying to make you into. Stop trying to hide from God because He sees you and He will call you out. Don't hide from me, please, because I know that YOU ARE so beautiful and YOU ARE elegant, and YOU ARE royalty. You have to claim all that God has called you to be. What that is may not always be clear, but my God Justine, it's beautiful. I'll leave you with this: be so desperately vulnerable that all you can do is seek Jesus and hide in his arms.
At least you finish your art :p
Let's hang out before you go to Europe. I have a room now. You can come and hang out in my room. It is epileptic blue. I am painting it. Whoever painted it last time was drunk or could not draw inside the lines. I have a bay window. Moved in today.
So anyway: Let's hang out. I'll buy you chocolate things. There is a bakery close by.
mari, i like bakeries. and i like hanging out with you. uumm...next week is crazy. but ok! tuesday pm? (i have an appointment at 2...so, after that?)
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