what

i don't usually have this kind of time to deal with being 'bored'...

what is 'bored'?

i don't even know what i want, or even if i want anything with which to be 'not bored.'

a good book...something to make me think or feel creative...but not too much work right now---not enough attention or energy for work...

but like the command to pray has nothing to do with 'feeling like praying'...so the command to be probably has nothing to do with 'feeling like being'...  

so what gives? 

do colours cooperate when i don't feel like enjoying their cooperation?  does this book engage my eyes, my attention, and my emotions when i sort of just passively want something to make me feel alive...?